My Half Of...

My sensitivity to optional choices seems to expand the more my sensitivity and awareness expands. Because of this phenomena, prioritizing has often been agonizing. I'll often allow the situation to suggest what would be best for me and I can see what is best for others much easier than what is best for myself. So I attempt to apply the same standards for myself. Standards seem to go up as sensitivity increases, so I find that my transcendant goals and ideals never arrive - which translates to, "where is my thriving practice of Alexander Technique students?"

I'm thinking that even saints were not aware enough of their own assumptions and how to balance their many conflicting needs. I wonder if that's not what "wise men" had in mind by keeping their knowledge deliberately obscure.