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Many people's creative drive might be considered compulsory - but because it's creative rather than destructive, it's not considered a disorder, but an inspiration.

I see the assumption that "the solution must be comparably intense so as to combat the problem's intensity" to be an expression of the mistake of bouncing from extreme to extreme. I think the reason it's so common of an assumption is from a cultural history of implied opposites and that using will must be a battle. The opposite of a hateful problem is to first just stop repeating the problem.

That assumption is wrong, as F.M. Alexander discovered, among others. If you assume those extremes, you'll miss information that your twisted senses have learned to ignore as being of no consequence.

Can we only regurgitate our previous conditioning? Some people even proud of their conditioning, as people are proud to be a product of their family heritage.

I guess if you believe that you have no creativity, (or that most people have none too,) you can say your belief that people cannot get past their conditioning is generally true. I have noticed that deciding you're not creative is a self-limiting idea to that takes extra effort to hold.

I've thought that, because of naming conventions, that our culture has some of the intepretations of feelings quite misdefined. This lack of correspondence of names to what is actually happening with feelings contributes to the confusion of what is going on in the experience. There are probably feelings that you cannot access because you haven't gotten past some of the inherent misunderstandings about emotions that our culture seems to have.

It's a little embarrassing, but it's been such a source of happiness for me that I'm entertained by so little. It comes from my high sensitivity that I have had all my life. On the other hand, it means I'm much less motivated to work towards something that will hopefully occur some time in the future. This is directly opposite what most people consider to be reasonable adult life.

I think that sensitivity to optional choices expands the more one's sensitivity and awareness expands.

Today Chris and I jumped up and decided to go for a swim at Ho'okena Beach, which is only eight miles away from where we've been staying while he's doing some sheetrocking work in exchange for where we're staying. This beach has a really short break, but the snorkling is superb.

It's still surprising that going into the waves there is a cold shock, despite the heat! The sand is a lava and coral mixture, so it's very hot on bare feet.